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Teachable moments

"Teach them to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up" Duet 11:19 (Duet 6:7, Proverbs 22:6, Isaiah 38:19) I love great teaching moments. My daughter Kayla attended Montessori school during her formative years. Her teacher was an English woman who told me something I'll never forget; she said: "use every opportunity in life as a teaching moment for your child." Even though my daughter is a teenager now, I still utilize every moment as a teaching moment or for great conversation. So today as we were riding home from our daily school pickups, we found ourselves at a four-way stop that intersected rural two-way streets. I noticed that the car in front of us crossed over the intersection and moved to the side of the road. As I looked further up the road, I noticed that a funeral possession was approaching us, so we knew to wait. Even further down the road was an ambulance weaving through the cars, which eventually caused the members of the funeral possession to pull over to the side of the road. The word "precedence" popped into my head. I immediately turned to my daughter to ask her "okay, what just happened?" I was excited and full of joy because we haven't had this kind of banter in a while. She could have answered the question several ways....from a spiritual standpoint, from a physical or scientific standpoint, from a judicial standpoint, from a moral standpoint, or from a logical or illogical standpoint, or all the above. I wasn't looking for a correct or incorrect answer, but rather I was curious to find out what her natural bend toward learning, understanding and perceiving the world in which she lived. I was curious about her perspective. I was also looking to see if she would even consider the element of "precedence or protocol." ....Instead, she criticized my driving, talked about the police's inability to keep the procession in order after the ambulance passed, then she said the ambulance's emergency was greater than the funeral procession. Laughter and Joy filled me at that moment. I love being a mom. Prayer: Jesus make me just like you, so I can walk, talk and teach along every road.

#Jesusmakemejustlikeyou#Jesushadgreatteachingmomentsalways#Duet.11:19

Picking up the Pace.....

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 (2 Sam 16:12, Romans 8:30, Romans 11:29)

Scripture is Multi-tiered

God takes care of all our needs

Our gifts are for others

Over the last couples of months... I have been performing a labor of Love that took me out of the running game and community. To add insult to injury the last two weeks it was completely shut down. The phrase "cabin fever" at is an understatement! lol. All my fellow runners post were like tiny daggers directed at me (but I know that wasn't true)....it just seemed they were running miles ahead of me.

God will always have a better plan...

Today I hit my boiling point as I begin to yell and scream for my fix. Then I looked my labor of love directly in it's sweet little face and conviction set in. The lord reminded me that he works all things out for our good... he knows our needs and our wants, but just like our loving father he wants to give us so much more. Inevitably, we may have to take the scenic route or sit on the sideline for a moment, but it is ..just.. for a moment. By the way, isn't this thing suppose to be about him? Yes, but we reap the benefits of being obedient to his plan, anyways I wouldn't trade the opportunity to receive divine instruction or unadulterated love for a million bucks! If we hold on no matter how tough.... we will eventually reap a bountiful harvest if we do not faint.

Consistent walking and running God's way means... I can have my "Cake" and eat it too. Even better, now I know how to share.

I can't wait to walk with a new found love, as well as burn up the running trails with a profound appreciation!!! We have a lot of catching up to do <3

#babysteps#Bigstrides

So Amazing! 

     It is August 19, 2015- 8:27 pm on a rainy Wednesday afternoon and the spirit of God is resting on my heart...  I am singing "How awesome is our God (Overwhelming)" by Israel & New Breed (feat. Yolanda Adams), there is not an actual song playing on my Mp3 or the radio in my car but is on repeat in my head and heart as the storms and worries of life are raging around me.  There seems to be a peace resting on me as I listen to members of my family scream, holler and complain.   I am numb to the complaints and overwhelming nuances that seem to plague their mind, not as an act of disregard, but as a reminder to trust the one who can change it all.  Have we inquired of him?   I notice the looks on the faces of the children in the room and I begin to pray for them.  They are victims of our adult stress and strain, also realizing if you don't tell them any different - they believe all is right with the world.  Children are a blessing and a pure wonder of God.   So we should cover them in prayer, that they're innocent and the strength of their dreams may survive the negativity of our adult experience.  I am praying that the Lord of host will pierce through the stench of our worry and increase our faith, giving us child like faith to experience and approach the things of God like a child.  Lord help us.   

But it all begins with ....

Obedience. 

     An hour before arriving at this "Amazing" reminder of God, the Holy Spirit began to move in my heart about being obedient to the urgings of God no matter how difficult.  I witnessed the movement of activity or perceived busyness and outstanding accomplishments of my Facebook counterparts, college colleagues, family members,  church family and other random faces, however the Holy Spirit reminded me to remain, be still in the midst of so much activity.  As I sit still trying to quiet the thoughts of "what I should be doing", a familiar image settled in my mind of speeding cars and people... moving in warp speed as a central still figure slowly turns in the midst of it all, methodically moving in slow motion as the people and things around he/she become a blur or streak of light.  This is what I felt like at that moment, determined not to join the crowd...but to step back and allow God to speak and direct me above the bustle of accomplishment.  

       4:44 pm - August 19, 2015 

(Passing Up Walking/running in order to sit before the Lord God) 

Text to Self :  There is an old school Gospel song entitled  "I believe I'll run on to see what the end gonna be..."
Well, I don't really know that song, however the title reminds me of a scripture "You say, "I am allowed to do anything"--but not everything is good for you. You say, "I am allowed to do anything"--but not everything is beneficial..." 1 Corinthians 10:23
I love this scripture...because God has made us so wonderful...we as humans can accomplish infinite feats....we have a plethora of possibilities...of doing and accomplishing whatever we set our minds to do...   But is it beneficial...Will it bring God glory?  Is it beneficial to all who seek the Lord?  Our natural inclination is to consistently move toward a goal or a way of blessing ourselves...this is an incomplete understanding ... this is not the only way of God.  Yes the Lord blesses, but the Lord also chastises, prunes, teaches, humbles, counsels, and loves.  There is no greater experience than to follow God's wondrous lead, untouched by simple human wisdom and misperceived needs....to allow him to lead... To just believe in his plan, even when we don't understand.. 


There are running days, walking days, and rest days; This was a be still day.  So amazing.

#wholeness <3

                          

   The Art of Being Still…

As I began perusing Facebook this morning I was bombarded by a number of posts that ranged from celebrity beefs, celebrity breakups, the growing amount of racism, racial slips and slurs by more celebrities, police brutality, animal cruelty, deaths, sexual perversions within families, thefts, murders, moralistic decline and the continuing confederate flag dramatization.  The only flag I could see during those moments was a red flag that seems to protrude from my now overtaxed mind and broken heart.  My soul began to cry out, because of so much sickness, sadness and tragedy, usually when I am in such a place I search the scriptures to find answers for solace/understanding.   The overwhelming  sense of disgust leads me to Luke 8:17 “For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open.”  Random thoughts of justice begin to enter my head as I am infuriated by the lack of human decency.  I begin to place blame on our country as a catalyst, because the United States was no longer the golden child of leadership.   I am reminded of the many wars that the United States has fought abroad all in the name of “putting on a good face,” while our relations at home were “going to hell in a hand basket!”  We are literally throwing out the baby with the bath water, while wiping the toilet with its blanket.   We are fraudulent or as my daddy use to refer to as “show boating.”  We are inauthentic fluff, claiming to be the land of the free while shackled by ancient demons of hate and perversion that we can’t seem to cast out, step on, shoot up or shake away.  We are fake, phony, hypocritical and inauthentic!  We are showboating! …I am sad.   

According to urbandictionary.com showing boating is 1. To have a visibly exaggerated idea of ones own skills, talents, or abilities. 2. To exhibit a grotesque amount of undue and unfounded pride for a skill or ability which is actually mediocre.  We are mediocre; we are mere scavengers attacking our symbols of authority.   Our president is doing a wonderful job with a minimal amount of support.  There was a story that was recently  generated on Facebook via twitter which showed a picture of a bald eagle being attacked by two seagulls.  One seagull was seen dangling from the eagles talons, while the other seagull was aggressively attacking the eagle from above.  Seagulls are known as scavengers by nature, preying in large noisy flocks wherever there is food.  After viewing the photo my initial feeling was shock and disgust.  That particular photo reminded me of todays string of post/story on Facebook; the newsfeed seemed to be infested with birds of prey.  When I re-posted  the eagle/seagull story it was met with divided sentiments, some thought that my interpretation was “too negative”  while others agreed that my interpretation was accurate.  We are divided.   God is not divided.  The country may be in division, even fragmented but God is not.  Most times I try to keep my page free of extreme political responses, and intentionally lean toward uplifting christian jargon in order to spread the Gospel of Jesus Christ, however today depression set in.   I wanted to curse everyone and everything that seem to curse everyone and everything that was weak, helpless and innocent.  Then the light came on, it was no longer about age, gender, race, national origin, etc… It was no longer surface stuff… I could see a spiritual war.  

I realized today that I am drained.  I usually reach for a cup of coffee in order to wake up…instead I felt the need for a cup of tea.  I didn’t care about running to the end of the earth today, I just wanted to relax.  My mind wrestled with Luke 8:17 and my heart just wanted a cup of tea…so I gave in.  As, I began to boil water on the stove top, I then updated my Facebook status “... sometimes you have to allow things to come to a boil.  Then you can have YOUR cup of tea.”  I begin to meditate on my post as I  opened my tea package so that the bag could steep.  There was a bible scripture inscribed on my tea bag, which read “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10, at that moment a sense of calm came over me.  It was if God spoke directly (almost demanded) this request through my tea cup.  Just moments before, I wanted to go out and fight every cause, but that was impossible and overwhelming.   My heart was divided, even torn for each one of them.   I didn’t know where to start, I was angry, hurt, wanting to curse the whole American process, but then realizing that each group of individuals were also victims.  I digressed and went back to my Facebook post and began to edit, “Sometimes you have to allow things to come to a boil, then you can have GOD’s cup of tea.” I then revisited my original scripture Luke 8:17 “For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open.”   I was so angry about the  information overload on my FB news feed, that I approached my biblical understanding narrowly, excluding the title and the subtitle that encased Luke 8:17.  By doing so, I took the scripture out of context.  Rereading, I discovered that Luke 8 title is “Many Women Minister to Jesus,” the subtitle of 8:17 being “The parable of the revealed light”.   

        There is a time for everything under the sun, knowing what time that might be, is about relationship.  It is not about reading outer signs or being overly busy, but being still before an Almighty God.  Now that I’ve spurted and boiled it is now time to steep and pray.  

Selah

If you Love something…

Saturday mornings are usually dedicated to my long runs.  This time of the year is usually the time that I begin my escalation of miles in order to be ready for my fall races.  Instead I woke up exhausted and irritated by a bombardment of Facebook post generated by a frenemy (real or imagined) that continually posted her annoying and possibly exaggerated feats of miles.  The same runner who just started running only three years ago, but somehow managed to reach "professional runner status".  The one who made me leave one Facebook page to post on another, just so the competition would stop.  Only to find myself competing on the new Facebook page with a whole new “crowd of witnesses.” So I returned to my original Facebook page to make small yet less detailed post of my running.  Nevertheless, I would not be running this morning, no matter the temptation, because I just want to catch up on some sleep.  “Bling” another post!  I realize that I have a tinge of (looking for a better word) “jealousy”, because I want to run!  The mind is willing, but the body is just not cooperating today.  So I roll over exhausted from an extremely long week of classes, studying, driving, papers, motherhood and “just” life.  I hear the sound 

“Bling, 

BLing, 

BLING!!” 

…become increasingly louder in my head again and again and again, and I become increasingly mad! 

 I realize I am “feeling some kind of way.”  OMG, Am I jealous? Yes, I am jealous. 

Ashamedly, I drop my head in disbelief, then a quote drops in my now deflated spirit, “If you love something, set it free; if it comes back it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.”    I was soothed with these words that just came to mind as I continued to wrestle with an overwhelming feeling of  “jealousy!”  

No, I can’t be jealous, I reminded myself  “you are a Christian, a minister, a child of God….I should never feel this way.  

Only God can be jealous!”   

So I begin to enlist my teacher gift and sternly put on my “wordsmith” hat.   I open my laptop and dig feverishly for definitions in order to soften my convictions.  Covetousness… “feeling or showing a very strong desire for something that you do not have and especially, for something that belongs to someone else.”  Nope, not that, I cross this word off my list “not coveting, I am already a runner - this is something that I already have.”  I scramble to the word “Envy” ( involves two parties) is “when you want something someone else has…” Nope not that, I cross this word off.   Not envy: I can’t want her ability to run because I have been running for over 20+ years.”   So, that left me with jealous (involves three parties) which involves the fear of someone taking what we have. “ Omg, I am jealous!” So who is the third party?… is it “the open road, unhindered and all the benefits that come with running?”…I love running and I am too exhausted to go out this morning.  I am irreverently afraid that she will reap the benefits of a relationship that I have spent years developing and coddling.  This was my baby!!  I have surely hit the bottom and I am sad and ashamed.  

There are about 56 Bible verses about “letting go.”   I love quotes but what does God say?  “"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.”  (John 3:16)   If  God gave the ultimate sacrifice, why can’t we trust him to take what we have and make it better?  Why should we begrudge someone the very thing that brings us Joy?  Why aren’t we sharing the Joy of running?  Why aren’t we sharing the Love of Christ Jesus? Why can’t we allow someone the opportunity to experience the blessings of God for themselves?    We don’t know why people do what they do, or why they need what they need…even if their motives are less than honorable.  Let go, Let God, Let’s share Jesus.  I believe that God was jealous for the presence of his son, but he had to share and sacrifice him just for a moment.  

“If you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.”  As I begin to grapple this morning to correct my feelings, the struggle was concluded with the return of my peace and the jealousy subsided.   My eyes were opened and my hip was a little wrenched…my morning visitation was a wrestling with God.    Not only am I STILL a runner —I am a blogger, a writer and so much more.  Thank you Jesus.

Thank God for ALL his gifts as he wants to bless us with more.   

Perspective of Perception 

My first official Monday on CTS campus began as a mixed bag of chips, coupled with what seemed like amazing ah-ha moments, bouts of kindness and unbelievable attacks.  I sat in my class gently wiping the fingerprints from the lens of my glasses, and then returned them to my face.  The professor began to talk about “function” and “over-functioning” in our prescribed communities.   I laughed quietly to myself, as I thought of my less than perfect vision and it’s adjusted functionality made possible by scientifically prescribed alternatives.  This thought then causes me to meditate on the Apostle Paul.  I am reminded that this Pharisee (then named Saul) was confronted by Jesus on his way to Damascus, because he continued his quest in persecuting Christians which ultimately persecuted the savior himself.  He had a misperception of what the new movement represented.   Ultimately, Saul was “passionately” doing the wrong thing.  I then contemplated how his character, nature and name was changed once he was separated from his association with his chosen or prescribed religious organization.  I began to wonder about (as I often do) about good and bad collaborations,  patterns of action, wrong mindsets, victim mentalities, bouts of self pity, and murderous intention…because of following wrong movements.  I intended to write a wonderful blog today about being in the right place at the right time, but my thinking changed when my day was met with unrest and the absence of peace.  I dealt with bouts of confusion, headaches, episodes of self pity and unclearness, however at the same time, I also experienced moments of serenity, clarity, resolve, unity and appreciation.  So how could these two dynamics reside in the same space?  How could two opposing spirits and agendas seem to battle in the same proximity?  Yet it did.  I had also been reminded of many of God’s stories in the bible throughout the day, Joseph in the morning, Peter/David during Chapel, and Paul in the classroom.  The Bible themes were fitting and telling.  I wondered what was the purpose of these biblical reminders… to lead, to help with discernment, to teach, or a gentle nudging of God’s spirit that says, “…this is the way walk in it” ?    Nonetheless, amidst the themes of struggle and gentle leading… I did want to theorize anything I just wanted to find Jesus and have him clear this whole matter up.  I was in a storm of decisions with the voice of God competing with opposing perceptions.

There are over a hundred verses in the bible that refer to “vision.”  The Lord literally poses the question to Zechariah (5:2) and Jeremiah (1:13) “what do you see,” unveiling their perspectives as well as their perceptions.  Paul’s prescribed perception/perspective was delayed so that the Holy Spirit could remove his reliance on his personal prescribed preceptors.  Paul had to unlearn certain things in order to receive learn the person of Jesus. We are either in the position of Paul (self motivated) or Jeremiah (God dependent) that even in the brightest of places we must still remain in prayer.  As I walked across campus back to class, I remembered that the devil comes as an Angel of light, he suggests and twist opportunities like “did God really say?” and makes one push past God’s timing, especially when an attractive offer is present.   I don’t usually rely on feelings, however at this juncture in my walk, all my senses (perception, insight, feeling, knowledge) are working overtime…prayer is crucial.  If something doesn't feel or appear right, I am no longer in a position to ignore it.  I’ve come to the realization that my honeymoon phase is over in ministry, seminary, and life.  Its time to look at all things with a sober expression.   

Sitting back in the classroom my private thinking begins to subside and I try to refocus my attention on the professor.  The professor concludes the class, ”Are there any questions?” I reach for my glasses, that are now sitting on the desk, and as I lift them up one of the lens drops out and falls to the floor!  I stare down in unbelief at the displaced lens and I am praying that this is God’s way of saying …“you are welcome to see clearly now.”  

Beginnings

     My first blog serves two purposes-

1...to meet a requirement for my Dr. Watkins P612 class- Evangelism, Photography and Social Media...

2... to fulfill a mandate and a call to become Whole in Christ.

     Ironically, I have been posting pictures, writing blogs, teaching scriptures, giving now words, speaking grievances and evangelizing on Facebook since my inception in 2010.   As a matter of fact my very first friend on Facebook called me just before I began this blog.  I began to post on Facebook as an outlet - because I didn't know where and when God would use me in my call.   So like Abraham - I would go to the land(s) God would show me, like tiny puzzles pieces scattered throughout a very narrow path of obedience.   I am thankful for this class because it was not a course requirement, however God expressed to me one night to take "Evangelism" in order to go to the next level in my life and ministry.  So I view this wonderful opportunity as a launch pad... to journey into wholeness in Christ Jesus.  I hope that this 5 week course and my twelve month blog will bless your sock off(s).   I am praying that your shoes are already removed.

Selah